Well actualy the first time i used this site and figured what the hell. So here i am going to attempt to tell my lifes story.
So i grew up in a little town. Everyone seemed to know eachother but i realyy didnt talk to anyone, so i didn’t. So i only hung out with family. About time i was 10 i started talking to a few people. So you see after a year i made a few friends. Then i dont realy know what happened i went from th happiest time in my life to the saddest time. So by time i was 12 i was starting to notice everything all at once it seemed. I noticed people by their actions not by what i was told. For example i was told you should love you parents but i dont anymore .But one of the first things i noticed there was no god. I prayed some hoping to change things so i could be happy again nothing happened. Then i started wondering things like if there was a god why would he make people starve suffer die or be sad. To continue when i just turned 13 i moved. Everyone there were nice people almost everyone seemed like a friend. Then one day i was in computer class (fuck computer class) they made me fucking fill out a question thing and one of the questions were wat is your religion so i put atheist. Boom just like the one person saw and it spread like a forest fire. i was all the sudden hated by everyone. i had a few people who i thought were friends but it seems as though they were acting. A few months back i found a way to deal with all your worries alcohol and weed. And heres a story the first time i ever had weed was with my mom. First time i drank with my dad. So i just turned 14 and ive learned to not listen to anybodies opinion of me for my beliefs or for anything.
Oh sorry if this hole thing seems kinda scattered cause i think it does
It is a hard world out there, and even harder at that age because life can go in many different directions and everything is so confusing. That period in one’s life is a shifting point. You start to mature by growing from the child that you once were into a teenager, and being a teenager you are overcome and enraged by so many emotions that you are not used to. Your body changes, and your mind enhances. You become aware of things you weren’t aware of before. You see the world, and the people in it, as it really is… cruel and cold. There is good and beauty out there, but mankind has destroyed much of that. Everyone is so fake these days. It is hard to find someone to call: friend. Me? I have not one friend left anymore… I used to have many. After I quit using drugs, I was forced to see who my real friends were… none. It was all a show. Be careful with the alcohol, but smoke all the weed you can. There is nothing wrong with it, and it does help one to relax and it eases the pain a little. It keeps you from thinking… and that can be dangerous. You need to have a sharp mind if you are to get anywhere in this world, and in this world we all must fend for ourselves. I am pro-marijuana and I believe that it helps more than it hurts and it should be legal. Just be careful with it, and don’t let it blind or cloud you when you are introduced to other heavier drugs. Those are the ones you need to stay away from. Trust me… I know.
Thank you for sharing your life story. My childhood was the same. I also hung out with my family so I didn’t manage to make any real friends. And on top of that I’m introvert that makes things even worse.