i always hear the same things where i’m from “i love him” “i love her” when they only knew each other for weeks only. i always felt like that was bull crap, till i met her. Her shining brown eyes and long flowing hair, how her smile could make my heart race. I fell for her more and more everyday till the point that i stopped everything that ruined me for her. I stopped hurting myself and taking pills, i started writing and reading way more then i already do. people told me “shes no good” but i always felt otherwise..till i met him, the evil lustful trickster who had his lies holding her heart. I felt the shock like someone twisting a rusted knife in my forearm and felt it turning slowly in my skin. I was plagued by love, the evil and mysterious feeling that can build a world..but take it down as well. she was the foundation of my sanity and health, my mentality and ability to understand. The trickster always gave me a dirty look because he knew i could have her at my side in an instant. we had times of love and lust together that no 2 friends could have with each other, she saw a side of me no one else could..a side with a beating heart. her love is my heart beat and i’m still her armor from the pain…but sometimes i feel like im just her drug that removes her pain. right now i’m cracked and broken barely able to keep her safe anymore…
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I know the exact feelings you are going through right now… for I had the same experience happen to me. Though after 8 log lustful weeks I found that he was no more than a manipulative trickster himself… only using me and never knew the meaning of Love… was playing with me the entire time… like a puppet on strings. I finally saw this in the End and I shot him down… and left him for good. There will be no turning back for him, or for me… and that is the way it shall forever be.
Nice work my friend, I always enjoy reading your viruses.
I don’t think she is using you. I think she’s simply tired of being tricked and she needs somebody who would protect her from that trickster. I believe her love for you is growing greater and she sees how much you give to her. Don’t give up!
shes told me she’s inlove with the trickster..
Yet he’s just tricking her. You must talk to her about this more and fight for her if you love her. She may be in love with him but it’s up to you to show support and sooner or later the trickster will reveal his true self.